Genre(s): Contemporary Romance
Published: October 16th 2014
How do you heal after everything has been ripped away from you?
Completely devastated and alone, Tristen cannot fathom life after losing Cami and his unborn child. He attempts to find normality in his broken world but everything seems wrong.
Aria is compelled to help Tristen and cannot escape the undeniable connection she feels for him, even though Cami was one of her closest friends. She tries to help him move forward by befriending him but quickly realizes that there is more.
Tristen and Aria are both struggling to deal with these confusing emotions. Can they find happiness even when they feel utterly broken?
Cami loved being on the beach, even though the sand got everywhere. It was like her second home and she needed the sand and waves just as much as she needed oxygen to breathe.
Once I got to the beach, I collapsed on the sand in the same spot we always claimed and let all my emotions go. For it being in the middle of the day, there weren’t many people out today. The weather was supposed to worsen within the next few hours and the dark clouds were already starting to move in, making it fitting for how I felt. My life had turned into this dark storm that wanted to swallow me whole. I knew I had to fight but it felt like I was facing a fifty foot tsunami with nowhere to take shelter. My heart had been ripped out that day in the ocean and there was a gray veil looming over my life.
I don’t know how long I stayed on there but the next time I opened my eyes, the sun was gone and the wind had picked up. The waves were wicked and the sand was being picked up from the gusts of wind. The area was deserted by then and it felt good knowing that I was truly alone out here. I felt this weird sense of peace when I finally let go and thought about how Cami and our baby were both looking down on me now. I needed her strength to get me through this nightmare.
My heart hurt and I felt defeated. The ocean had won. I hated the damn ocean now. Hearing the roar of the waves crashing used to sooth me, now it revolted me. I was lost. Cami and the ocean were my two loves and now both were torn away. I just wanted to feel her skin against me again, to feel her comfort now, when I needed it the most.
Consumed in my thoughts of my old life, I was startled when I heard movement within the sand behind me. I didn’t think much of it until I saw a woman around my age sit down next to me.
“You feel her here too?” The girl questioned while peering out into the worsening weather conditions. The water was choppy and turbulent. She was wearing a yellow tank top and white shorts. She held her flip flops in her hands and set them down in front of us.
Who is this chick?
I wanted to be alone. When I was alone, I was able to concentrate on the memories of the love of my life. Having someone out on the beach with me felt like betrayal and I needed an escape. There was an awkward silence that hung in the air. I thought about not answering her and waiting for her to get the hint and leave. After what felt like hours, I finally gave in and told her just enough to not ask any more questions.
Published: June 8th 2014
***WARNING 18+ only due to mature subject matter and strong sexual content***
Payton wrote a self-published book regaling her encounters with men while visiting Las Vegas. To her horror, life changes in more ways than one when someone finds out her true identity.
Ryder, a successful publisher, is determined to find and sign Reece Edwards. Using what little information he can find on her, he sets out to find her, feeling it will definitely be worth the chase.
While on his search for Reece, Ryder meets Payton and the chemistry is explosive. Payton has done well with not allowing anyone to get close to her, but something is different with Ryder. Ryder can’t get Payton out of his head, but he is still on his mission to locate Reece.
With two tragic pasts, Payton and Ryder each have demons to overcome. Will they be able to put those demons to rest or will it be all for nothing?
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- The birth date on the gravestone is my actual date of birth ;)
- I try to include names from my street team and readers in my books. (Rebecca, Elixix, Tami, Cassia were all from them in Regretfully)
- Tristen got his name from a good friend of mine. She was with me in the beginning of my writing process and her boyfriend’s name was Tristen and I fell in love with the name.
- I saw Cirque Du Soleil’s Zumanity and one of the performers had his nipples pierced. I was sold and knew Tristen would be getting them. :D
- I was able to relate to Tristen in some ways regarding Cami’s death. A boyfriend of mine was taken from this world too soon and I drew from those memories.
- Gloria’s is my favorite Latin restaurant and I had to include it in the book. The one I go to is in Dallas though.
- Aria’s flashback (you’ll know which one I’m talking about, hint- alcohol) was tough for me to write. I spent weeks on it, making sure it was accurate and written in a respectable manner. That’s one scene I don’t go back and reread very much, but it’s often on my mind.
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